Is Deep Healing within Reach?

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Dear Community,

Aren’t we all longing for healing of the self?

What challenges are you currently facing?

After today’s exploration of a personal journey with eating disorders from Sarah Hauch, we may come to the conclusion that the map to healing AND a joyful, rich, fulfilled life truely does lie within.

Like every Wednesday, tonight we have CHI DO, available for all, and free on Zoom.

Wishing you a beautiful week ahead,

Modern Mystery School UK & EU Team


Is Deep Healing within Reach?


Join us today for an interview with Sarah Hauch, a Guide and 3rd Step Ritual Master from Winnipeg, Canada, led by Julia Tiffin, our head witch of all things newslettery! Sarah is an amazing individual who shares openly her life’s journey. You can find her on Facebook and Instagram.


I was truly amazed after hearing Sarah’s story: the amount of struggle people go through to heal this one thing to live a life in peace is both heart-wrenching and inspiring. 

Sarah’s journey, marked by resilience and a profound search for healing, highlights the often hidden battles many face in silence.

Today, we will explore her personal experiences with eating disorders, looking not just at the challenges she faced but also the events that have led her towards a more peaceful and fulfilling life. Her story is not just one of recovery, but also of discovering a path to self-acceptance and love.


[Sarah Hauch] I’m here to relieve the stigma of eating disorders. Often, there’s a perceived divide—an “us and them” mentality—where people think, “It’s those people over THERE that have eating disorders.”

This might be the person who’s 80 pounds, obviously very, very thin, maybe in the hospital, BUT YET, eating disorders kills more people than any mental health illness in the world.

[Julia Tiffin
] Really? Higher than opioids, higher than anything else???

[Sarah Hauch] 
Yes. The resources and research, at least in my own country, are abysmal. And I didn’t find the answers in the medical system. I would have, if there were answers. I would have, as my mom is a doctor. I felt totally out of control in terms of emotions, and not knowing when something would happen – my heart broke in these moments. I had no guidance, I didn’t know how to let it go, I didn’t know how to release it. My brain went to, what’s wrong with me?

For example, the only thing that my brain could find, when I had trouble in a relationship, was because I gained some weight, it must be because you gained weight, so it’s your body. So, instead of just crying, instead of letting it out and then moving on, I attached to the physical body.

The crazy thing about it, unlike someone who’s an alcoholic who might be the funny guy at a party, when you loses weight, there’s all this reinforcement that, you look great. But that can very quickly go into a slippery slope.

If you want to look thin and you want to have a certain body type, there’s nothing wrong with that. There can be a woman in France and a woman in Canada eating the same thing: one’s actively dieting and one’s not. It’s all a mental thing. We have to think, what is our attachment to food? What’s our attachment to our body? It all comes down to the balance of self-acceptance and self-love. Or like we say in Kabbalah, the balance between Binah and Chokmah.

It wasn’t until the Empower Thyself class that I could make a first real shift. Because every night, I wanted to actually heal myself. Every night I would say that tomorrow I would stop, tomorrow I was going to eat healthy. But every day I woke up and I fell back into the same pattern. In the Empower Yourself class, they said, you’re going to get ten times the empowerment to change your life. This was an interesting concept to me but the moment I woke up that next day, I was actually able to heal my eating disorder. I wanted that change so badly, but I was lacking the empowerment to do it, and then I finally did it.

Now, of course, it took years of healing to finally love and accept my body. And it wasn’t until I actually had a child where I loved 100% and it wasn’t an actual problem any longer. It was a very gentle slipping away, like a very gentle opening of the hand. In the beginning, if you want to heal someone with an eating disorder, do not take away the eating disorder. That’s the one thing holding them together. And so when I had my baby, it was that last the last push, the last pain I needed to decide that this thing didn’t serve me anymore. So I let it go.

Today, I really want to help people see that it doesn’t have to be this grueling process of releasing an eating disorder. It’s a gentle letting go. It’s like a letting in more Light, and then a letting go of something that does serve you. We have to give people a better way of managing the pain that caused the eating disorder in the first place.


Recently someone asked me ‘But my brother stabbed my mother with a fork in my bedroom in front of me. How is it possible to heal from that?’

It’s a crazy thing but the map to truely healing does lie within us. A switch often needs to be flipped so we can access the information within and heal. Very importantly, we also need make the decision that we want to heal.

The Life Activation, the Empower Thyself Initiation, the Galactic Activation and Healers Academy Initiation are key jumps to fast track this healing. These are the processes that ‘flip the switch’ so you are access the Healer within, and overcome traumas, shift out of feeling like a victim and find JOY.

For those of you embarking on the Healers Academy Initiation, the personal healing that ensues after the Initiation reaches deep within, and we applaud you for making this step forwards!

May the Light shine in your life!

— Julia Tiffin, 3rd Step Ritual Master & Guide, London

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Welcome more Healing into your life


There might be something that you are trying to heal, something that is holding you back from embodying your fullest potential.

Would you like some help to ‘flip that switch’ within yourself so that change can finally happen? Are you tired of running in circles?

If you feel a calling and if you’ve had enough of wandering around in the fog, trying to make your way out, then you may find a lot of clarity through welcoming more Light into your system, your aura, and essentially, your whole life.

You may see the links below to learn about what classes are offered and what could best serve you at this time.


Galactic Activation 1 (Open to Certified Life Activation Practitioners or to those attending Healers Academy 16-20 Sept 2024) 14-15 September 2024

Professional Integration Day for Life Activation Practitioners (LAP PID: Open to ALL Life Activation Practitioners) 16 September 2024

Healers Academy 1 (Open to Adept Initiates – those who have done Empower Thyself!) 16-20 September 2024

Ritual Master Novice (RM 1: Open to Certified Life Activation Practitioners) 17-18 September 2024

Magick of the Ritual Master (Open to Certified Ritual Masters) 19 September 2024

Temple (Open to Certified Ritual Masters) 20 September 2024

How to Live a Hermetic Life (Open to Certified Ritual Masters. Certified Life Activation Practitioners may apply.) 21 September 2024

Hermetic Joy (Open to Adepts – those who have done Empower Thyself!) 22 September 2024

Enochian Magick 1 (Open to Certified Ritual Masters) 23 September 2024

Enochian Magick 2 (Open to Certified Ritual Masters) 24 September 2024


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